The Confession - Three

Kaaya returned in the evening. "Where were you, ki and ka? I was worried about you; where's Nimish?" "Ah, Nimish dropped me off and went. We went for a long drive to clear my head. Nothing to worry. Sorry, I forgot to inform you." Kaaya told Kriya about everything that happened at the mountain pass. Kriya was all about the moment. They talked about it for a few minutes and later came to the conversation left unsaid in the morning. 

Kaaya, "Kriya sorry for morning. I had no space to take in anything at that moment. Shall we talk where we left?" Kriya told Kaaya, "Always remember Ki and Ka a relationship stays longer when the man loves harder in the bond. When we women love them more they take us for granted." Kaaya nods her head in disappointment, "What made you brought this topic? Anyway, Kri, it's about the people in the relationship. I partially agree with the statement you made, but again, I've seen guys getting crashed when they've loved more. But still, you left him broken. Tell me if I'm wrong, when you felt guilty after, what? 2 years, and you made a comeback and that stupid, without giving a second thought, embraced you in his arms. Although he refused to give any commitment to protect himself from the past, repeat, yes, he melted like ice when you came back. Akaay did love you more than one can ever imagine. He did stupid things at lengths when you were gone which not even his friend Jeet or anyone knows. The thoughts always haunted me. Why did you leave him, Kri? How could you deny his touch and let someone else touch you! I've heard his part of the story. You kept telling me you made a mistake, but you never regretted doing it. What is up with you? If you want to you know you can share." 
Kriya anxiously scratched her hand. Her head was down, and she talked, "I don't know, Kaaya. What can I tell you when I don't know. It wasn't like I never loved him or likewise. But his love was too over for me, was suffocating me. You also know how, at times, he can be obsessive and pushy. I had faith in him. I did love me. He did things for me in 1000 ways than what he did for you. He only did 10% for you which you also agree. But I don't know after some time I felt out of love for him. Everything about him started bothering him: his words, actions, care, pampering, his presence, literally everything. I got attracted, say, to be so infatuated with the other guy, and in the moment, I couldn't resist, or moreover, my feelings and a moment happened. I'm guilty for what I did to Akaay when he was at no fault, but I am not guilty for what I did because the moment did make me feel happy, which I felt after a long time. I couldn't see in Akaay's eyes after knowing he still loved me even after I did wrong to me. I knew I wasn't right for him and I left him." 

Kaaya took a deep breath, "I don't know what to say Kri. I'm sorry I'm judging you. I'll not lie about it. I despised you. To that extent where I hate your name. I would never tolerate your name. When Samartha told me last year that I had to share a room with a girl named Kriya, I was so agitated. I hated this name to my core as it was Akaay's exes. I never met you, never ever talked to you, you did no wrong to me but I hated you. But because I had no option I agreed to share a room. The day when I arrived, and the way welcomed me, I was like not everyone with this name is the same. We bonded over a year, and see what a small world it is, you turned out the same Kriya I hated the most. After knowing it on your birthday I was stunned. I never thought you would do all this to Akaay in the past." Kriya looked up, "People say one cannot judge the closest, but they do end up; I'm not hurt; at least you're honest about it. And you've all rights to judge me. You know me that much. I won't say you shouldn't when now you know me. I'm saying judge me because you know me, and you can tell the reality. You're pure Kaayu. The Akaay I left and the Akaay I met was changed. He would never mention you, but unknowingly he would call me by your name, his friends bringing you up. Some things he did out of love, thinking of you as me. Akaay did accept me, I knew he would never come back but I was surprised when he did. But he wasn't mine. He did love me and still does but you always have his soft corner. He didn't show me your pictures as he had none. But he happened to show me your display picture from another account, and when the agent inquired about having a roommate when I heard your name, I was curious to know you. I always knew since the moment you arrived, and I saw you, I was confirmed you're the same Kaaya, Akaay dated. I wanted to know you, what you were like; when he said you and I share similarities, I was annoyed. But it's taking me guts to say this: I'm nowhere near you, Kaaya. You're the purest soul. Akaay told me how you ended up judging him after listening to our stories, and you had the guts to say he did wrong to his exes, which hurt him. Although you did judge me after listening to one story, you still sided with someone who you didn't know. Every action has an excuse that the person validates; who's to decide? I did wrong I accept." 

Kaaya was surprised, "All this time, you knew about me. That's very strange to know. Let it be Kri. What's the point of whining about the past? Let's move with what is ahead in life. What are you going to do about Akaay and You?" Kriya, "I don't know. I thought we could make it work. Akaay will eventually give his commitment considering the love he has for me. But I was wrong; he loves you more than he says or expresses." Kaaya interrupted Kriya angrily, "That's not love Kri. It was attraction, the obsession. He was finding you in me. Nowhere it was about me. I got it late but now I do. The only regret he has is, you know what it is? Apart from that, I doubt it was time for me. He made me realise a thing, Kri, not to force anyone to make time for you; if they want to, they'll. No wonder he did but when only he wanted to. I get it, and I was appreciating till the moment he made me feel like I was an annoyance to him." Kriya smirked, "You also do not believe in what you're saying, right? You're saying it to make me feel okay. You know you always understood him, even when he didn't make an effort to make you understand things, you did. It is who you are. Why are you running from him and his love? He's stupid in love, I know, but you're stupidest by denying your feelings for him, Kaayu. Not everyone gets it. You got it. He hasn't changed his profile picture since your breakup. He has kept the same picture because you told him you liked it the most and it was the same he had when you two started following each other. Do you have any idea how powerful a couple you can be? You both run in different directions, trying to move in sync with one direction and see the magic. You underestimate your companionship Kaaya. He goes to the deepest lengths to be yours, and you keep pushing him. I understand he's a little complicated at times. But I know, and I believe, and trust me while I'm saying this, it's you who tames him and could tame his alpha energy. You are no alpha female, but still, you tame him. Do you understand your value?" Kaaya, all confused, "I agree with you, but I'm not afraid of his love. I'm afraid of his obsession. It scares me to the core. He's different from his display picture. Maybe, I'm in love with the idea of being in love with him rather than being in love with him. He loves you Kriya. He told me clearly he loved you with all his heart and his heart stays with you... I'm the girl he met accidentally and you're the girl he always dreamt of meeting. How much ever this hurts, but it's the fact he loves you unconditionally. He cannot separate you from himself; you always reside in his heart. And to be clear, I'm moving out next week. Unfortunately, I cannot live under one roof. I don't want to come in between you and Akaay. I heard Akaay was joining a company in Banglore, so he may move in here sooner. It's best for us all if I move out. And Please, I cannot accept a single word after it, Kriya. I'm sorry. I'm going to sleep, had a tough day. And to make it clear Akaay is yours. He always has been." Kaaya got up and approached her room; Kriya shouted from behind, "How long are you going to avoid it, Kaaya? One day you've to face it." Kaaya replied, "I hope that day never comes, and if it comes, I no longer wish to be there to see it. She slammed the door!" Kriya was sad. She didn't want to lose Kaaya and her friendship. But at the same time, she knew Kaaya needed to move out for her own alarming health and for Kriya and Akaay to be together. 

Kriya called Akaay and told him about the decision Kaaya had made.
Kaaya fell asleep. A message popped on her phone. It was from Akaay. "I'm coming tomorrow morning. There's something I want to talk about." 
12/12/2024